半月來的假期,終於結束...重新回到了香港,又是一種不一樣的感覺.

家鄉變化很大,舊的樓拆的拆,人也四散,再也不像當初了.
天氣熱得不知怎樣形容,一天到晚,汗如雨下,加上每天12小時的大停電...果真要命.每天晚上,到天台上曬月光...想起也覺得好笑,閒時談談笑,逛他三四個小時的商場...六點多來準時看日落,晚上看星星......

也是開心,去不成旅行,也無所謂了......

把她弄哭......是我的錯嗎?
不想再聽與想,真的
我踏出你的門口,就不會有回去的打算...

也許從未想過......在這個時刻,竟然會想起你!
想天天見到你,有空時吵吵,開心時談談笑笑......

我不開心了......你可以來陪陪我嗎?

Today must a rainning day .
I hate my job very much, everyone in there they just focus all the spirit in tolking with otherone. I really don't understand, why they will like to do it ? Is that hurt anyone, will make them happy?
I am not strong enough, that's true.

我們的第二個約定......一起去香格里拉
去喝天山的水,看那裡的羊和草原...雖然遙遠,哪怕只是盼望,不重要了,不重要了.只希望你把這份心意牢牢記在心裡,不論時間長短,是一個只屬於我們,屬於2002年的,值得我倆珍藏的時刻.
你知道嗎?很久以前,已經打在心裡,把你當作自已的偶像,你的獨立,勤學,成為了我奮鬥的目標,大抵沒有一個朋友能像你如此,對我的影響如此深遠.
真的!

"為什麼不能跟我面對面講呢?我們不是認識了好久的朋友嗎?"...
不明白,也恨你,不喜歡我可以照直說啊,發什麼脾氣呢?不幫我,不理我,難道就可以解決問題了嗎?很不明白,就是這樣的小事也可以炒一大輪,還差點哭出來了.
沒朋友就沒吧,這麼多年來,我也這麼過啊......人際關系,始終是我最最失敗的地方.
還以為已經大個了,不再介意,不再哭了,不再是那個扶著鐵柵,哭得呼天搶地的小女孩了.
不想了......我還是那個女孩是了

"你們會做到十二月嗎?"......

我不想,說實在的,這裡也沒什麼值得我眷戀的地方,尊嚴被狠狠地挖去,一個又一個的惡夢......對我來說,對一個從未曾工作的人來說,是否太殘酷?

我羨慕Sandy的灑脫,在她收拾行裝離去的那刻,我真有衝動想跟她一起,最起碼,保住了面子與尊嚴.

今早,大家一起去吃壽司,逛街...算是散散心吧.

意想不到的,是人竟可醜陋到如此地步,不惜用盡這種方法....我好想跟他說,其實人,可以很簡單,我不相信世界上,有一樣痛苦,比得上恨一個人.為什麼不可以放開點呢?

風扇壞了,媽媽說"都差不多十年了,也是時候了"......
我蓋不住心頭的悲哀,不禁問一句"難道世上真的沒有不變的東西?"
Sandy, Zero,Brenda,Janet.四個可立舊生,五年後偶然相遇在這裡;縱然,各自有不同的經歷,但是這告訴我們,只要有緣,總有相見的一天.
我懷念我們一起說笑,一起訴苦,一起吃雪糕的時刻.我以為這種恩賜至少也會持續一段時間,可是自你們一個個離開,我知道,在分別面前,我仍然是抬不起頭...
"不要走好嗎?"我已記不起這話,究竟說過多少次.
"本來也只有你一個啊"這是經理的話.
我終究也是自已一個.

Tonight are quite special. My Dad, Mum and little sister are went out. I don't know why, incrediblilly I have some bore. Before I always shouting with them - Do not tolking loudly...but now...that's very funny!

Shopping, shopping...that's ideal full of my head, I need to finish that at the New Year, but that's not easy! I ran amost half of the MongKok, just buy little. I don't know why, maybe my taste are special...but that enough make my tired. My leg like a wood, can't move, can't feeling. I really don't understand why a lot os people they will like shopping in Mongkok? Really that is not a good place for do any things, the street are short and narrow, the person almost can't going and come inside...I really hate!

Not mum's cooking food, I just can ate a little cup noodle, my god, that's terrible enough!

Today is Valentine's Day that also is my first day of New Year holiday. I almost can't believe I incredible want to keep learning at school! Nothing can do, just sleep and sleep, after went to shopping. That's very boring!
I must agree the Chinese New Year really make me anger. Buy new clothes, foods, clean up the house.... I think if I need to done the housework everyday, I must crazy!
I also want to travel oversea. Like our English teacher... I really don’t understand why my dad would stop with me? He always say ‘you need to find a job, and took money come home!’....
If let me choice I really want to choose a job, that can encourage myself continues to study, to see more about the world! I promise you I must will take care myself very very well.... Do you understand? my dear Dad?

The especially day, If you like the moon too . You must know...

This week was special of my life, because I know this year maybe is my last year learning at school. Maybe ours English teacher is right- if you don't understand why are you wish learn F.6, well why are you sitting in the classroom?
That makes me feel sad! I think I not very work hard to prepare my exam. I don’t know why I always feel tire and sad...
In my family, I have mum dad, and one sister (lower than me), so in my childhood still now, I always need do many extra things, like cooking for my sister, clean the house... If I have problems that must try to do myself, but my sister always luck- she not need do any housework.
I love my family, however I not sure they are love me!

Today is first day in due for learning at school. That maybe my lest years learning at school. If I cannot pass the HKCEE.
Especially make me feel today's meaning. Today is a sunny day; the sunshine gave me and my friend a happy felling. Our teacher gave me a new pew, that very close the blackboard, I think that's fine ...I can focus more to learn.
Let me make a wish: I wish I can happy everyday and can use my effect pass the HKCEE.

Just two month, I almost cannot believe, the school's change… more new than before(including teacher and principal) If I am a F.1 student I think I will happy see there.but by myself, I don't wish the school have so bigger changer, I know that's very selfish. But I just try to keep everything for my know well. Please excuse me. I don't wish lost my teacher, my school .

About the new principal, I think he mest can do very well… that's not just he very kind and have two master degree. According his speaking and active, I think he have many good mind about education. So believe the school must better before.

Yesterday, my hometown's grandma had a bad information for us …she don't careful hurt the leg.
85 years old, I already cannot sure I can see her how many day. My sister and I also lived with grandma before. At that time, I really afraid, I afraid I cannot see her any longer.
her son (my uncle), always take care money… I think he deem money is important that his mum.
What can i do?
You must will healthy accompany our years by years…

That's our history teacher's baby. Look at his face...just like see our teacher.

Today is 'Great Heat'.That is one Chinese calendar, delegate very hot. According to my family's tradition, we must swimming and eat the mung bean syrup today. My mum said if we ate mung bean, the god will bless our healthy this year.
This summer I not come to my hometown, it is because I have much homework and I must prepare the HKCEE exam. But I really miss my grandma, I wish eat the mung bean syrup with her. My grandma already 85 years old, always sick, but her son and family often cannot live with her. That is not a good thing.
What are you doing? grandma? Do you eat the mung bean syrup?

The Old Lady
If deem journey danger's people is old. I think me also an old lady. Maybe some people will say sit down at home also dangers, if like this, what can you do?
I cannot sure what happen make me have like this not safe feel. But I believe if your childhood saw the people used knife plunder your family, saw your mum's marry present gave the thief wrest, saw your mother cries in your face...I think you impossible will deem this world is safe.
Although I think journey is danger,but I still like travelling, I wish see the different people, different culture. But everything just 'thinking' not to do. The problems except money also have the courage!
So, until now I just an OLY LADY, like watching the atlas and listen the traveller say his experience.

The school exam already finish.
I not so happy, It's because my grade not good. When I first come to school I already not like the exam, maybe my family and teachers will say 'the school exam are give you chance, you can show the other people your ability ...'But you know every years how many students cry of the exam? you can say they are not work hard .... but If you are a teacher, you must know,how many people they hard-working, but in the exam can't get the high grade?
I feel that's not fair. Why the community used 'exam' to critique people's good or bad?
If they can't pass the exam, that also can delegate what?