還是那麼沒用...居然睡不著.....

半月來的假期,終於結束...重新回到了香港,又是一種不一樣的感覺.

家鄉變化很大,舊的樓拆的拆,人也四散,再也不像當初了.
天氣熱得不知怎樣形容,一天到晚,汗如雨下,加上每天12小時的大停電...果真要命.每天晚上,到天台上曬月光...想起也覺得好笑,閒時談談笑,逛他三四個小時的商場...六點多來準時看日落,晚上看星星......

也是開心,去不成旅行,也無所謂了......

把她弄哭......是我的錯嗎?
不想再聽與想,真的
我踏出你的門口,就不會有回去的打算...

也許從未想過......在這個時刻,竟然會想起你!
想天天見到你,有空時吵吵,開心時談談笑笑......

我不開心了......你可以來陪陪我嗎?

Today must a rainning day .
I hate my job very much, everyone in there they just focus all the spirit in tolking with otherone. I really don't understand, why they will like to do it ? Is that hurt anyone, will make them happy?
I am not strong enough, that's true.

我們的第二個約定......一起去香格里拉
去喝天山的水,看那裡的羊和草原...雖然遙遠,哪怕只是盼望,不重要了,不重要了.只希望你把這份心意牢牢記在心裡,不論時間長短,是一個只屬於我們,屬於2002年的,值得我倆珍藏的時刻.
你知道嗎?很久以前,已經打在心裡,把你當作自已的偶像,你的獨立,勤學,成為了我奮鬥的目標,大抵沒有一個朋友能像你如此,對我的影響如此深遠.
真的!

"為什麼不能跟我面對面講呢?我們不是認識了好久的朋友嗎?"...
不明白,也恨你,不喜歡我可以照直說啊,發什麼脾氣呢?不幫我,不理我,難道就可以解決問題了嗎?很不明白,就是這樣的小事也可以炒一大輪,還差點哭出來了.
沒朋友就沒吧,這麼多年來,我也這麼過啊......人際關系,始終是我最最失敗的地方.
還以為已經大個了,不再介意,不再哭了,不再是那個扶著鐵柵,哭得呼天搶地的小女孩了.
不想了......我還是那個女孩是了

"你們會做到十二月嗎?"......

我不想,說實在的,這裡也沒什麼值得我眷戀的地方,尊嚴被狠狠地挖去,一個又一個的惡夢......對我來說,對一個從未曾工作的人來說,是否太殘酷?

我羨慕Sandy的灑脫,在她收拾行裝離去的那刻,我真有衝動想跟她一起,最起碼,保住了面子與尊嚴.

今早,大家一起去吃壽司,逛街...算是散散心吧.

意想不到的,是人竟可醜陋到如此地步,不惜用盡這種方法....我好想跟他說,其實人,可以很簡單,我不相信世界上,有一樣痛苦,比得上恨一個人.為什麼不可以放開點呢?

風扇壞了,媽媽說"都差不多十年了,也是時候了"......
我蓋不住心頭的悲哀,不禁問一句"難道世上真的沒有不變的東西?"
Sandy, Zero,Brenda,Janet.四個可立舊生,五年後偶然相遇在這裡;縱然,各自有不同的經歷,但是這告訴我們,只要有緣,總有相見的一天.
我懷念我們一起說笑,一起訴苦,一起吃雪糕的時刻.我以為這種恩賜至少也會持續一段時間,可是自你們一個個離開,我知道,在分別面前,我仍然是抬不起頭...
"不要走好嗎?"我已記不起這話,究竟說過多少次.
"本來也只有你一個啊"這是經理的話.
我終究也是自已一個.

Tonight are quite special. My Dad, Mum and little sister are went out. I don't know why, incrediblilly I have some bore. Before I always shouting with them - Do not tolking loudly...but now...that's very funny!

Shopping, shopping...that's ideal full of my head, I need to finish that at the New Year, but that's not easy! I ran amost half of the MongKok, just buy little. I don't know why, maybe my taste are special...but that enough make my tired. My leg like a wood, can't move, can't feeling. I really don't understand why a lot os people they will like shopping in Mongkok? Really that is not a good place for do any things, the street are short and narrow, the person almost can't going and come inside...I really hate!

Not mum's cooking food, I just can ate a little cup noodle, my god, that's terrible enough!

Today is Valentine's Day that also is my first day of New Year holiday. I almost can't believe I incredible want to keep learning at school! Nothing can do, just sleep and sleep, after went to shopping. That's very boring!
I must agree the Chinese New Year really make me anger. Buy new clothes, foods, clean up the house.... I think if I need to done the housework everyday, I must crazy!
I also want to travel oversea. Like our English teacher... I really don’t understand why my dad would stop with me? He always say ‘you need to find a job, and took money come home!’....
If let me choice I really want to choose a job, that can encourage myself continues to study, to see more about the world! I promise you I must will take care myself very very well.... Do you understand? my dear Dad?